I was a canvas,
Nothing but a big black space.
You came along { quietly, so quietly }
And showed me so many colours { i’ll never forget your eyes }
You lit up the darkness I became so used too;
You chased away the demons in my head, so easily.
You made your way through my walls; you made your way into my heart, oh my black black heart, so softly { i didn’t feel it }
But I felt it;
When you walked right past me like I became the ghost I was always so afraid of turning into.
But I felt it;
When you never, not once, looked into my eyes ever again.
But I felt it;
When even saying my name sounded like such a chore to you.
I felt it; all over; all the time.
I felt it;
When I walked past you like you were nothing to me { lies lies lies }
I felt it;
The fire, the rage, the pain.
Why.
How.
Why.
Why.
Why.
The canvas of colours, turned to ashes.
Ashes, cold nothings; barely breathing; black.
Black.
Black.
Black.
That’s the colour I now see.
I was a canvas,
Nothing but a big black space.
You came along { quietly, so quietly } { why didn’t i see you coming }
And showed me so many colours { i’ll never forget your eyes } { or your smile, or the way you said my name, or the way your gaze started fires in the pits of my stomach and spreaded all over my body, heart and soul }

But I forgot; I forgot;
You were nothing but air; never caught, always flying, never on the ground, a power so strong - you never stayed at one place for too long.
And I am an ocean; so deep, filled with secrets the world will never know, so calm yet so torrent, a power so strong - I could kill.
A power so strong - I was always made to stay.

But I forgot; I forgot;
You were my garden - dandelions; roses; tulips; pansies; sunflowers and carnations;
When I was naught but a mere bug in yours.


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ASHES.

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